A few words can mean so much

I met someone truly amazing LA. Two amazing men who I really like.

The difference between the two is that I spent time getting to know the one person for about 8 hours before we kissed the first time. We should our ideas about expectations, relationships, aspirations and disappointments. We ended up spending practically every day together for the remaining 10 days of my stay, walking around, talking, enjoying beaches, food, music and car rides together.

It made LA hard to leave because I miss who he is; loving, caring, considerate, passionate, thoughtful, not selfish.

He just said something amazing that is making me blush and feel happy and embarassed at the same time. I don't want to forget this, so I'm embedding it here:

Jasmin, you really have a wonderful energy that radiates from you. Not to sound cheesy, but I don't know how else to describe it. It's what draws me to you. It's amazing.
It's just that you are a genuine soul. We all have imperfections, but I feel that when I am around you, I feel closer to the truth.

The other peson, saddens me a bit to think about him, He was just as amazing, but the problem is we didn't get to actually know each other before things happened. We were drunk, joking around for 2 hours at my friend's and everything after that, led to a major misunderstanding on my behalf.
I lied to him because i didn't want him to misjudge me, but my initial lie and confessing just led to exactly that.
He didn't get to know me at all and hence I didn't want to open up towards him to avoid any distorted conceptions, not did I want to give him the truth without him understanding in what context it was based, but it ended up not mattering anyway.

It was a learning experience. Now i know why I've never slept with anyone before getting to know them.
Previously its taken at least 9 months before I even kissed a guy, if i haven't been sure that i love the person.

I'm wondering if my friend was right when he said my actions were triggered by the insecurity of possibly not having a job when getting back or if 2 years of no vacation unleashed something in me and caused these 2 events.

Today I just reflected on how much I strayed from the path of Buddhism, but I'm poised again.
At least i learned a good lesson from this trip, so it was worth the mistake.

May you be filled with loving kindness.
May you be well.
May you be peaceful and at ease.
May you be happy.